self-torment

She would only have had a needless fright, to see her mother, haggard with self-torment, by her bedside at that hour.

To encourage such fantasy was the idlest self-torment, but he had gone too far in this form of indulgence.

With a saint's capacity for self-torment, Madeleine wielded the scourge over her own back until the blood came.

Then there came over him a spirit of defiance, of self-torment, of ill-humour, and he felt tempted to throw up the whole thing.

Charity listened with a greed of self-torment like a fanatic penitent.