People ask me if I have some kind of death wish, to keep saying the things I do.
Racked with guilt, she has become a drunken mess who seems to have a death wish.
“Bernie Goetz is Charles Bronson in death wish,” said Sliwa.
death wish n.
A desire for self-destruction, often accompanied by feelings of depression, hopelessness, and self-reproach.
A suicidal urge that presumably drives certain people to put themselves consistently into dangerous situations.